I finished my last graduate level math class over four months ago. I should be enjoying my evenings watching TV and playing games, and for the most part I do. However, I still feel lost. Apparently, enjoying my time is a luxury I feel I shouldn't have.

Even before I finished my Master's degree, I was always working on a web site to keep me busy and continued with that for many years. Even now, I update my own web site with movie reviews. I don't really know why. Perhaps I need to feel like I have some self worth. Perhaps I feel the need to continue because I've been doing it for so long, just to keep myself busy. Is it time to give up what I've been doing for so long (over 7 years)? I just don't know.

Maybe I'm just burned out. Writing a review seems more and more like a chore that takes a couple days to put together for 50 people (if that) to read. Am I doing this for myself or for other people? If I'm doing it for myself, what do I expect to accomplish? If my main goal is recognition and it hasn't come by now, will it ever? Do I keep toiling away for something that may never happen?

To make things tougher, the summer movie season is right around the corner. There are a ton of movies I want to see and share my thoughts on. At the same time, that is a lot of hours to spend to write all of those reviews. I'm not sure I have the energy to review a movie a week for 10 weeks.

The vacation to Disney World in a couple of weeks will be welcome and may very well be what I need to recharge the batteries. At the same time, it may be the beginning of the end. Only time will tell.