Starting yesterday afternoon, I became really down in the dumps about my current gaming situation. I paid money to play 50 games in a fantasy baseball league. So far, I've played 80% of my games. By the end of the season it's expected I will have played 60% of my games. So, I'm a little salty about all of this.

I'm seriously considering not playing next season because of the current situation and that made me sad. I enjoy playing and it's one of the few things I look forward to every week. If I don't play, then there is no reason for me to go to the store. I don't buy anything there because it's pointless. There's no one to play the games if I bought them. I've been struggling with this for days, but yesterday it just all started to bother me. I felt like I was having to give up one of my hobbies.

So, today, Erika and I go to counseling and have pretty much nothing to talk about. The things we were to work on didn't develop over the past week (although we continued to work on previous assignments). Since there was nothing to talk about we got to delve into my personal issues over gaming. Not knowing me or the situation and not having time to catch her up on my life, the counselor offered the most generic advice possible. There were several times when I just sat there not saying anything. I said what I had to say and there was a very uncomfortable silence. It seemed like her best suggestions were to try to post flyers (which I have attempted before) or change who I am.

I don't put myself out there. I'm not going to talk to someone just to talk. If I don't know you, don't expect me to introduce myself unless I know there is some sort of common interest we have. However, the counselor says I should try to be more outgoing and talk to people. She even suggested that maybe I'll even make friends at Disney World next week. What good is that going to do? The chances of me meeting anyone from Tuscaloosa is pretty much nil. The chance of meeting someone at Disney World that shares interests with me is less than that.

The whole hour was basically a waste of time. We should probably make some progress in our assignments before going back. I certainly don't feel better about anything.