I feel like crap today. I'm completely lethargic and don't want to do anything but sit here. For some reason I feel like everything is coming to an end. Remember how you feel when you have a crush on someone and then find out they are taken or don't reciprocate your feelings? I sort of feel like that, like I'm experiencing a huge letdown (but not a letdown from a crush).

A lot of bad mojo is afoot right now. Athena, my pet parakeet who has doubled her life expectancy, is rapidly deteriorating. I found out Monday that she has liver disease which is common in elderly birds. The vet drained 3 cc's (a whole syringe) of fluid from her to try to help her breathing. I think it's all filled back up. Her abdomen is still beet red and swollen. However, I did notice she ate all of her carrots from yesterday, so I guess that's a good sign. I'll need to take her regularly to get drained until she dies. This could taker a year or it could take a month.

Yesterday, I spent about an hour writing an email to the game store owner expressing my thoughts and concerns about the baseball league I am participating in. I love playing but the league has gotten to be so imbalanced (thanks in part to the owner) that I just can't take it any more. In my opinion, he took advantage of new players in trading to create an all-star team. There is a lot more to it than that, but nobody here would care. What confuses me the most is that he replied to my e-mail and only addressed one minuscule point about what he charges for other leagues. No "Sorry to hear you feel that way" or "I think you're wrong". I even told him at the end of the letter that I wasn't planning to return next season. The only reason I am still playing at all is because I paid $20 to play. I just want to get it over with so that I can move on.

Unfortunately, moving on means I probably will never go back to the store again. There is no need for me to visit. Nothing else is played there that I care to get involved in. Everything they play requires hundreds of dollars to be competitive. It's very sad for me to let go, especially when I have been a regular patron for two and a half years.

The Predators dismal play the past week isn't helping to raise my spirits. A week ago, they were first in the NHL and now they have been reduced to fourth in their conference and little hope of regaining home ice through the playoffs. They might even fall to fifth or sixth place if they don't shape up. The hopes of getting the Cup is looking bleaker. As long as they stay in the playoffs long enough for me to make it to a game, I'll be a little happier.

The silver lining for today is that the Mets are 2-0.